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There are still things you don’t know about me… don’t you want to know? I’ll be waiting there, Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)on the other side of this when patience wears thin. (via tylerknott) I couldn’t forgive him or like him, but I saw that what he had done was, to him, entirely justified. It was all very careless and confused. They were careless people, Tom and Daisy-they smashed up things and creatures and then retreated back into their money or their vast carelessness, or whatever it was that kept them together, and let other people clean up the mess they had made… F. Scott Fitzgerald (The Great Gatsby)(Source: we-said-our-dreams-carry-us) “Those who are heartless…once cared too much.” (Source: highregarddd) re-posing this because it seems I have forgotten… …and if you don’t like it, change it.
So that’s exactly what I’m going to do. I’m going to make the conscious effort to concentrate on myself - to love myself, to allow time for myself, think about myself in the singular and not worry how it/I may be and am affecting others. Eat better, play better, work harder, love myself deeper. I will answer the questions I have about “MYSELF” and consult “ME” on the things that “I” desire – without judgment from all forms of aforesaid. I have spent the majority of my hours/days/months/years worried about the happiness of others – more specifically, how I could make them happier and what I could do to make their lives better. Most of the time costing myself my own happiness and at the figure of my healthwealthandwisdom. So, I suppose - in a sense, my early resolution is to be more selfish. In absolutely every way, and to not feel sorry about it or regret it. I vow to eat wiser and research foods and diets that will benefit my health perhaps changing the very makeup of my body and in turn clearing and opening my mind, begin to do things that I have reserved on bucket lists and in savings accounts, concentrate on my skills and how they may lead me to my written future and benefit me more wholly there. I will find what I mean by religion, if it is God or another – and listen to what I have to say about what this time in this form means to me for however long I have to use it here. I will explore and hope to satisfy my wanderlust in these young years – On The Road and Eat Pray Love until I think I’ve really done it. If it’s physical or mental is the question I’m looking to answer here. I will not use “never” and “wont” as a defense mechanism any longer. Is it the non-conformation in those words I am really attracted to –Have I let my care for others fill this space so deeply already – am I done, have I spent that responsibility? I will really, actually, love myself. Because if not, who then? I will not use myself against myself anymore. I will be the greatest love of my life. I will be more selfish. |
The Little Yellow House
Journalism and Mass Communications: Strategic Communications Grad from the University of Kansas. Winter Park, Colorado. Passion for event planning, student involvement and leadership. 
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